You don't have it worse than anybody, and nobody has it better than you. The worse it gets in your life, the better it'll get. Everything will always always balance. You'll realize these horrible life experience are really there to help you grow. There're 2 sides to everything, light and dark, the law of nature. We're a part of nature and we live under that law. But it gets interesting when we realize we can live consciously and above that law. Everything is merely interpretation. Realize nothing bad can ever happen, don't disregard your emotions though, experience them instead so you don't end up repressing them. Learn to be pragmatic. Basically, what I'm saying is work on your mindset, develop mindfulness!<3 On the action side, start building healthy habits, like running when you wake up in the morning. Doesn't matter for how long, as long as you do it. Meditation, self reflection ie journaling and writing about the things that have been life-giving and those that have been life draining. Read. Read a lot of psychology and philosophy. Don't get stuck in a loop of self pity and victimization. When you stop seeing yourself as the victim and realize that the reason you feel shitty isn't because of anybody else but you alone. Anyways, I hope I don't sound too 'New-age-y" already but there's this article that definitely will make you think so, but you should still read. - http://www.truthcontest.com/entries/the-present-universal-truth/ - Some of what i said is from this article actually, summarizes some things pretty well. I don't agree with mentioned but i do think the first 2 pages are worth a read. It truly has the ability to put you in a better mind space. But I guess come to your own conclusions. Anyhow, I really hope you'll feel better soon. Hope you realize that when somebody goes thru hell and come out alive, they come out stronger than ever. Everything is perspective!!