How has the church's twisted view of sex affected you?

My parents were so concerned about my brothers porn and masturbation habits, but they never worried about their daughters because girls don't masturbate. I remember we weren't even allowed to have Vaseline in the bathroom because my mom thought my brothers would use it to masturbate (She never banned hairbrushes though)

One day my parents checked the internet history on our family computer and they found some porn and made my brother go to the bishop. Good thing they didn't check the links to all the fanfiction websites, otherwise they would have found my Harry Potter smut as well. Basically, they thought their daughters were completely asexual. So not only did I feel guilty for masturbating, I felt like a freak for wanting to masturbate at all. Guilt and shame would quickly overshadow any pleasure I got out of masturbating. Even now I have to fight back some occasional guilt when I masturbate and remind myself that it's completely normal. I even invested in a vibrator last year (which is an upgrade from a hair brush handle let me tell you) which teenage me would never have considered doing.

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