How to deal with depression partly caused by SPD?

you obviously have feelings. it's a bit of a sham that people assume SPD don't have feelings. i at least have lots. so no need to try to fit in the SPD suit - since it comes in all sizes.

think you're talking about the depression you have of not being normal - not being able to hang out at a bar and smile, laugh and have friends around you - or sitting over nice dinner at a restaurant with some sig. other. or just having the same 'light' they have.

you feel alone, surrounded by an invisible forcefield, outcast, a stain. etc.

well in my forays into the world of lit-people i find when i try to make a relationship with them, (get close to that light) i invariably snuff it out and leave a wreck in my wake. i've learned to be happy living alone, not just because i like being alone, but because it's better for the rest of the people whose lives i would have effected negatively.

i did try some real relationships and if you haven't u certainly can as well. had a GF for 5 years, where we actually lived in the same apartment (different bedrooms) we did things like traveling, eating, screwing, fighting, talking, blah blah.. great memories. there were even a few times i forgot my own emptiness and enjoyed sitting in a bar with her friends being part of something or some group. if you haven't done these things - i encourage you to.

if you can't find 'happy' u can certainly find 'content'. while i can't really tell what feeling i generally have other than 'watching' (which isn't a feeling) - i guess contentment or peace is the normal state - i've found other non-human-interaction things i enjoy doing: reading, writing, film, producing music, web, jerking off, barhopping, screwing, sleeping, and of course drinking. find something that makes you feel content and then do the shit out of it.

strong believer that u get exactly what u want in this life - so if your life is boring it's because you're not stepping up to the plate. if you wait for someone else to step in and change you, heal your or save you - you will be frustrated permanently.

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