How do you deal with loneliness when there's no real way out of it currently?

It's odd. Abuse and surroundings can take someone who was otherwise going to end up adjusted, and then just wreck them entirely and turn them into a sad sack who cries a lot and doesn't know any longer how to handle things that would've been par for the course ages ago.

I don't know what you went through, but I was sexually abused at one point as a young teenager, and had a very emotionally abusive and sometimes physically abusive father growing up. I obviously can't know exactly how you feel, but man... I at least can relate, it makes even basic things in life very difficult.

There is this girl that works at a book shop near me (I read a ridiculous amount ftr), but I'm hesitant to get back into the fray I guess. As much as I love being with someone and going steady with only 1 person, I fucking hate dating. Like the feeling things out part to see if you're compatible? Would absolutely rather get fucked with a chimney poker.

Oh cmon now you cheeky bastard. You've already got your eye on someone else! See there is definitely hope, you're totally being blinded by your own (understandable) despair. Ok but again - similar argument - is the bullshit of dating worth going through if you can find someone that is a great companion and makes your life at least enjoyable some days? Seems like a small price to pay, no?

By the way, I do appreciate you sticking here and actually speaking with me. Most people would've just skipped by now and left it at their first or second message.

Being engaged in these conversations are how I saved myself tonight. I didn't wander in here for no reason. Everyone I'm talking to is helping me just as much if not more than I'm helping them. Someone told me earlier that I saved their life tonight. How can I then go kill myself? I went from ready to snap and feeling like my life is pointless to quite possibly saving someone's life. That's a really incredible thing for me. Doesn't mean I won't be ready to die tomorrow, though. Haha. Such is mental illness.

I'll chat all night, I live on the internet. :)

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