Also, just some random questions that I feel like I should ask. Have you ever been told that you have a stiff face or aren't expressive?

Like I've said, hard to smile and show positive emotions when people don't reciprocate and you're constantly reminding yourself of what you lack every second.

I know the obvious "You shouldn't compare yourself to others" but since I didn't have a proper development for living too sheltered / not making the necessary efforts when I was a child, I'm paying the price today as an adult and being lost at sea about everything.

Do you feel like everyone has a "life manual" and you don't?

Ding ding ding.