When he continued to lie to my face and kept choosing weed over me ; yet never saw that it’s the same as being an alcoholic at this point…which I am. He dismisses my fears of safety living in the city as a newly single woman who is relatively attractive . Saying how people don’t get kidnapped and how I’m over reacting . He constantly would deny therapy and I kept going back because I’m comfortable in chaos due to growing up in that kind of household .

I decided to leave last week. I’m still in the same living space as him as I get approved for a home (hopefully)

I’m fucking scared . But growth hurts and I’m ready to be done having to explain my side so I’m depth (like a lawyer) and it going over his head because he can’t comprehend anything while spiraling in his head . He’s selfish , rude, argumentative because of unresolved issues in his family , and has a victim mentality that has turned into depression. I’m about to be in a different decade age wise and I’m too old for this .