It is still relatively early days for me and I only officially decided to leave (and did so) earlier this week (attempt number 5. It feels different this time). I found out the beginning of the extent of his cheating 4 months ago. I realised I couldn't possibly truly love him anymore because as late on as this week just gone by, he was still trickling truths out to me. It feels like love, but it can't possibly be. The wiser part of me knows it's trauma bonding, and a deep, dark, nasty hole left in my self-esteem which I have filled with desperate attempts to change the nature of someone who does not have the capacity to tell the truth.

You will feel like you love him forever if you allow the situation to continue without the true and authentic honesty that may not come. The question is, how much do you want to not hurt anymore? Good luck <3