When I would shower and I would pull out chunks of hair and I was sobbing at the bottom of my closet more and more frequently from the stress of it all.

I mean, I tried to lay out everything and then just stopped answering. I didn't know what else to do. I don't have energy for it anymore.

When you feel like you tell someone everything that's bothering you and it's ignored/you can't come to a resolution, you have to just walk away. I couldn't take it anymore. There was so much I couldn't take anymore.

I'm sad about it, but the fact that I'm mad about things and it's less stressful now tells me it was right.

The whole boundary issue is real. And I tried to be as diplomatic as possible and I was pushing myself past where I felt comfortable and that was it for me. I was feeling defensive, uncomfortable, and way too stressed out.

I don't like to type on here as they could see but it didn't seem like my words mattered anyway.

You can like someone whom you have fundamental differences with, that's not a crime, but to keep it going when you or both of you are suffering is bad. It only creates negativity and toxicity. And I truly feel people who have such different personalities, the trying to fit or force each other into each other's molds is real. I don't think it's conscious, more or less, but it happens, and it's painful.

I truly believe we both have serious issues, independent of each other, and it wouldn't have helped us together at all if we stayed friends. We didn't understand each other. I gave it all I got and I didn't have anymore in me. I felt so dried up.

We both were at fault for things. And I think if we were both honest with each other, we were codependent. I'm not sure where support ends and codependency begins. We might have wanted each other in our lives for the wrong reasons. I don't know. I'm not a doctor. I certainly don't feel intelligent when I go on these word dumps.

I hope they are okay. I'm trying to be okay.

I just got so god damn tired of trying to communicate and it going nowhere and got so god damn angry feeling like what I felt or said didn't matter. It's better for the both of us that we stopped talking to each other. I hope we both get help for our problems and mature and grow independently as time goes on.