You’re right, it’s very confusing because some days I feel confident and other days I just feel miserable. My opinion on my body changes constantly based off of reading comments about what body types others consider to be more beautiful. Everyone has different opinions and preferences so I don’t understand why I try to make myself look a certain way because there’ll always be someone who’s not attracted to me regardless so it’s pointless really. I have a small chest so in my head I’m thinking that if I gain a bit more weight then it might get a bit bigger because I’ve seen it happen with others. Idk I’m indecisive so I might not even go through with trying to gain weight but I’ll try!

I’m sorry to hear that you also struggled with your body image growing up :/ it’s not easy ignoring what people think of you. I’ll make sure to check out those youtubers though!!