How FA are you?

  1. 27

  2. I'm a virgin. But I realized recently that, despite my jerking off all the time, it's a choice. I much prefer cuddling and kissing ... Calling myself a pure FA is an insult to people who are, but I relate. I know what loneliness feels like. I know what it's like to be rejected a 100 times, without a single yes to show for it. I know what it's like to be belittled, ignored, passed on for someone better ... I know what it's like to watch someone else show open affection and love towards the only thing I ever wanted in the world. But I don't think about it too much, now. What I focus on are the 8 girls I've kissed on the lips, since turning 21. 3 once, as just friends. 2 were make out sessions with girls I never saw again. 1 was a girlfriend, a girlfriend I had for 2 years, at that. 2 are ... ongoing. It's complicated.

  3. Depends on how you define a friend. In casual conversation, I've said shit like "Oh yeah? My friend is studying in Canada right now," where the friend is actually some chick I met in an airport one time and we exchanged contact info. There's no one I feel comfortable around, nor anyone I could message and have them hang out with me the same day. I'm very much a loner.

  4. 3-4. I tend to bring awkwardness with me wherever I go. It's very rare that I find someone I truly feel comfortable around, without also feeling on edge. I've had girls show interest in me at first, but then have them change their mind within 20 minutes of talking to me. It sucks, a lot.

  5. I never imagined I was ugly. But once I started trying to enter the dating world, I realized I definitely wasn't as good-looking as I imagined. I am good-looking enough that I've been called cute ... well, only one time I can remember right now, but still. And girls have smiled at me, too, rare a sight as that is. I've also been rejected enough times to know that I'm average, at best.

  6. Weight is important. I really just have no attraction to overweight women. At all. If a girl weighs more than 160, it's probably an automatic no from me.

Sunday: Work from morning until night. Eat out alone afterwards, usually.

Monday: Split shift, work really early in the morning, take a break, work more hours in the evening. Usually my most productive day, ironically. I explore the city and study.

Tuesday-Thursday: Work in the evening. I usually stay up late and then sleep in in the morning. I fucking hate it, staying up late and sleeping in that is, but my body seems to want it more than I want to fight it ...

Friday: Day off. Sometimes I don't even do jack shit with this.

Saturday: Work early morning. Usually get out and do something in the afternoon.

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