Hi everyone, so we just got a call about my grandmother passing away literally 2 hours ago. the thing is she lives across the world. i live in cali. I haven't seen her since 08 since she lives overseas and i just didn't get a chance to go. and I literally fell like my heart broke. I don't too many pics with her because my family just never took pics of anything. I maybe have one from like 10 years ago. She had a stroke about 6-8 months ago and ever since she was sick and couldn't really talk/ eat normally stuff like that. she ended up getting this thing i forgot what its called but basically a passage that forms in your body and your bodily fluids get mixed up instead of going to the appropriate place, and that if not treated could pretty much poison her. the doctors said this could be fixed by surgery but my stupid uncle who was taking care of her never took her to do it, he said she wouldnt be able to withstand surgery and he'll find another solution, ( he's a doctor btw, a surgeon) Like how could you not take her to do the surgery you might have saved her life, i will never forgive him for that. when my aunt called to tell us today she said she wasn't feeling well so they took her to the hospital and she said the doctor said her kidney wasn't working, she had low blood pressure and her body was filled with water. I don't understand any of this, I've never had anyone close to me die. Overtime i remember something of her or her voice i want to call my eyes out. I literally don't know how I'm going to get over the fact that i will never see her again. If anyone has any suggestion on how to deal with this i would appreciate it. thank you