Thanks great advice this is pretty inline with what my mentor suggested.

Here's a summary of my life: Kid: (Shy, Smart, Nice, Cute Kid, Basically Snailboi but really smart) Teen: (The guy every wants to be in HS) After HS: Enter college I realized Im really just a piece of shit, also learned I got so use to being treated like a god by EVERYONE I met that I cant function without it. Now: I go to school, work, then home. Every second outside of the house Im in absolute fear that someone is gonna upset my fragile ego. Oh the worst is when I see one of my Ex's from HS 2 of which are now model's and they look at me like "Ew I dated that loser".

Basically my whole life everyone has always non stop told me how I am really smart and good looking and im gonna end up with some perfect little life. Turns out putting this much pressure on someone is really not healthy because when their life messes up in the slightest it really fucks them up :)