How do you keep from killing yourself when the urge is so strong it feels comfortable?

I hope people see this.

For me now, I still struggle. I get very worked up and panic about my life situation and start to catastrophise - assuming the worst IS going to happen and that's when I start thinking of ways, times and places I could kill myself.

Then I remember that I've been in that situation twice before. I've made two previous attempts and I got lucky both times to still be here.

I remember how after I took all the pills in a fit of panic, rage and confusion I actually felt better and continued my day as normal. Then I suddenly realised what I'd done and was filled with regret and got myself to the hospital.

The second time I got myself drunk and slashed my arm open. Blood went everywhere, I'd severed two tendons but fortunately no artery. As soon as I saw the blood I again was filled with regret.

That split second after you've perhaps gone too far is terrifying and you realise that actually there is another way to handle this. I'm glad I didn't jump off from a high platform as that clarity you get just after committing to it must be terrifying when you can do nothing to stop it.

If you're having suicidal thoughts you must let some part of you reach out to someone. It could be a friend, relative, partner, teacher, doctor or you can simply dial a support phone number depending on where you live. Don't just sit and stew with those thoughts alone.

Nobody wants you dead and please trust me, once you initiate the final action you won't want to either.

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