I read through all the comments, and honestly why are you here on this sub? You asked a question and when meet with genuine responses you wrote them off. If they told you it was selfish you'd get mad. If they tried to encourage to not commit suicide you you attacked them. You asked how you could kill yourself without making others sad but honestly judging by the way you responded to people in this thread you don't care about others feelings.

To say how people have failed you in a letter? What a horribly disgusting thing to do. You don't care if others are sad. You're just mad at the world and trying to hurt others the way you feel they hurt you.

And then to come into a community full of those mourning the deaths of our loved ones and hold our traumas over our heads? Why would you do that?

Im not sorry if I'm being mean, youre just a child acting like a fucking brat. I sincerely hope you are able to over come this. You have so much room to grow and change as a person. But all youre doing right now is hurting other people. Please know that no one in this sub would ever possibly wish for you to die. Im certain that everyone here wants to succeed, but this is not the way. You can't help someone who doesn't want help, so I won't try, but I will ask you to stop antagonizing the people who want you to get help.