That all sounds horrible. I gave up 3 years ago. I don't have the capacity for it. My tolerance for such behavior does not exist anymore. Everything about the apps is cringe. The whole process. Then when you talk to the guys majority talk about sex looking for an FB when their profile says looking for a relationship. Or weird comments trying their negging tactic. Then when you get to know them a bit they talk badly about their exs. Or if you go on a few more dates getting to know each other they end up ghosting and then reappearing as if they didn't disappear. I got over it a long time ago. It is added trauma and for what?! Also the posts on here and Facebook groups is awful stories about such behavior. Online dating It works for some people that's great for them but there are many that it doesn't work for.