Trust me it will all go away and you probably won't even have to stay away from it forever, just a good 2-3 month break. I was fully aware of the breaks needed but still chose to abuse it at one point. I was taking MDA and mdma extremely often at one point and then went to ultra music festival and did it 3 days in a row, when I got back home I literally could look at a clock but couldn't tell what time it was, my peripheral vision was extremely fucked up to the point where it would seem like everything was moving. I was scared I was fucked up permanently and more scared that I was going to fail in school because of it. It took weeks of me literally not having any emotion besides anxiety. I knew it was bad when even my depression went away and I literally just felt like a zombie, about two weeks went by and I can't explain how happy I was when I actually felt depressed again because I knew I was returning to normal, as weird as it sounds. Eventually(I'd say 4-5) weeks I was almost completely back to normal, but when I smoke or drank I felt like I was rolling super hard, eventually that went away too.

There are people that roll as much as we did every single weekend and think nothing of it, believe me the fact that you realized something was wrong and put an end to it is a good thing, you will be completely fine. What I would recommend though is staying away from 5htp unless you really really feel down, let your serotonin replenish naturally even if it takes a little while.

I'm on my phone so I can't say as much as I want or be descriptive as I could but I promise in a couple weeks you'll be 90% back to normal then in 2-3 months you'll be 100%. If you need me just keep messaging me,been in your exact same shoes but probably even worse off. Keep a good diet, exercise, and keep your mind busy(even if you don't want to) also try to stay social, don't force it, but it will help too.