Wow you’re basically speaking of my experience at the moment and he’s sober for a few months now. I absolutely resent him and want to just back off and get a divorce but I’m tied financially so I’m still trying to figure things out. I’ve given myself a plan to be able to support myself independently in the future without him for the next 2 years.

Thing is, I heard that the brain will recalibrate after a year of sobriety (of course there’s no guarantee) and my problem is I really just want to run away. I don’t want to be nice to him. We’re exactly in the same spot (except I’m currently half way across the world from him so at least I don’t have to fake it in front of him every day. The day will come when I have to do it so I just have to make a decision when it happens)

Sorry I can’t give you any input just add my own rant to the thread but I really want to talk to you. Do you mind if I DM you?