How many of us are in the food service industry?

Thanks, hasn't been enjoyable, so I appreciate that.

I have an irrational level of perfectionism and general insecurity so I generally do any job well regardless of substance abuse etc. It just matters to me because if I don't my self worth will crumble. Basing your self worth on a fucking job is questionable at the end of the day, though.

However, I've had a lot of meaningful jobs even within the past 6 months-- the children I work with generally don't have a lot of caregivers who get them, the majority quit, i do get them (to the best of my abilities) and don't see much issue with them aside from my own health issues interfering with my basic presence. Their father died within the past year so they are definitely hurting jt is so fucking visible if you're there. Having so many caregivers quit visibly doesn't help).

I want to make changes for the better where i work rather than just make an income, I've learned I can make an income anywhere, I can't make positive change everywhere, though. This other women i recently worked for had massive anxiety and obvious alcohol/substance abuse issues, and even her friends were fucking shitty as far as I observed, I felt badly for her in the end and stuck with the job long past my own profit loss, that being the sole reason.

It is difficult to explain that but it is terrible to see how "close friends" will bitch about "close friends" to a fucking stranger less than half their age and expect the stranger to write it off. I can make up for the loss but a lot of people just can't. It is shitty. I try to help people like that where they arent normally tolerated and provide some sense of understanding where others don't because few fucking do they just say my money fuck all else. That is where I can make some difference, my circumstances have prepared me to adapt so I can make money anywhere I want so I don't fucking care. I care about the actual people. Fuck everything else.

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