Honestly, not to sound stale, but romance is romance. It's awesome! But it isn't everything.

I've always enjoyed it, but I think my problem was more to do with how I felt about myself, which effected who and how I spent time with others.

I just didn't really have a spark with people, and I do partially attribute that to being closeted trans, but there have been ongoing struggles with mental health that just cripple me as well.

I think what I was most apathetic for was my life's purpose. I have anhedonia, so I don't really feel pleasure. You could give me anything I could've ever wanted of needed, and I'd still be depressed.

Odd enough though, it wasn't until I after I started hrt, that I started to notice some feelings come back. Like feeling heart warmed, or sentimental, even to tears sometimes, and EXTREME euphoria for short periods of time.

So I now feel attachment and excitement.

But again, romance has always been there.