How much personal responsibility should we take for ourselves?

i think about this quite a bit, and have spent a lot of time talking about it in therapy. my thoughts aren't as centered around livelihood and working specifically, but more about how much responsibility i should/can take for things that happen while i'm experiencing symptoms. there is a fine balance to be struck between holding myself accountable for my actions and having grace for myself because this disorder causes me to do things i would NEVER do if i wasn't experiencing psychosis. at least, i'm told that there's a balance. i haven't found it yet. i err on the side of feeling terrible guilt for everything i have done in episodes, but i'm trying to work on it. i do hold myself accountable by staying away from things that encourage psychosis. i sleep as much as i can, i take my meds, i go to therapy, i stay away from weed and alcohol. if psychosis still finds me (it always does) then at least i have the peace of mind that i'm doing my part to try to prevent it.

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