Okay. I think more than finding a job rn you need to get out of that place. Right? And obviously you need to get a job for living but for that you need a right mindset and your current situation is not so very good so i would suggest that why don't you volunteer at first, like many travellers do. At workaway or something like that. You get a bed,you get food and even some of them like working at hostels will pay you . Meanwhile you can get your head straight, figure out what to do, and you can even find job opportunities locally wherever you go. My main point here is, this way you'll quickly get out of your country, meet new people, stay for free(obvio in exchange of work tho), and you'll get some time to figure out. Hope this helps.