Not sure what to say apart from you probably won't always feel that way.

So I had very low selfsteem despite growing up being told again and again that I was really pretty. I got into romance as a genre very early in my life, so people would constantly tell me that reading romance novels would frustrate me and give me unrealistic expectations of relationships, which made me feel pretty shitty. I got lucky(?) that I still got male attention despite having no self confidence, which I assumed was because of how Latin society works.

It kinda sounds conceited, but sometimes I look at the mirror or take a selfie and marvel at how pretty I am despite getting very little male attention these days (at least compared to when I was younger) . I guess as I got older I stopped caring less about what other people might think about me, or what about my looks I didn't like and I wish could change.