Hm, I do tend to look at more m/m or trans m/m fiction than the other way around. Might be because I can’t connect at all to f/f or trans f/f fiction, but while I definitely am drawn to trans male characters with no bottom surgery, I also swing back and forth on getting it myself.

I don’t have much bottom dysphoria to begin with, I’ll say that much. I don’t want a hysterectomy unless it’s absolutely necessary. This is, however, the biggest reason I haven’t seriously considered bottom surgery because I do feel like I’m missing a penis. I’ve always been fascinated, not in a sexual way at all, but curiosity and longing. Maybe for something I don’t have, maybe just to see what it’s like, or a mix of both.

I’m not sure yet what my final decision will be, but to answer your question:

Yes, I do keep swinging between wanting bottom surgery and keeping what I have. Who knows, once I can go on hormones, this might stay in one direction.