Currently taking an approach where I sit back and allow mindfulness to do its thing without "me" having to get involved. Letting knots untie themselves and delusion uncover itself. Allowing the full complexity to show itself moment by moment. It seems to me that the mind will liberate itself in time, and it seems inclined to do that. Sometimes I have days where I don't think about meditation at all, and I'm basically totally unmindful. Then some days, the mind "wakes up", all on its own. I don't have to poke or prod at it. This seems like a less consistent approach than forcing myself to sit for two hours every day, but it's also less painful.

I'm also working on understanding the depth of dependent origination as a more full-time thing. Realizing more the complexity of causality as it presents itself in my day-to-day life. Understanding the illusory nature of things like time and space. Waking up to the non-dual nature of everything.

Several weeks ago I had a massive insight into not-self, which really set a lot of things straight, and for a little while I thought that I might be done. I'm not so sure now. Now it seems like I'm trying to balance between the complete emptiness of phenomenon, and the separation we place on reality as an overlay. The separation FEELS like it's necessary to function in the world. It doesn't seem to me like I can live in emptiness full-time and still be a functioning human. I'm drawn towards the idea that I have to work with the separation while simultaneously realizing the emptiness of duality itself, or something like that. It's clear there's still more to unpack at this junction.