Why I hung up the phone

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I’m interested in psychedelics, help me figure this out. They sound so cool and interesting and possibly profound. I’ve done a myriad of other drugs, but never these. Always been particularly anxious about them. I have some mental illness and im afraid of amplifying those issues.

However, one thing im really trying to work on right now is allowing myself to let go of being in control and being present in the moment; and allowing myself to feel and recognize my emotions in the moment instead of three days later. I think a few (well timed, safe, with someone experienced that I trust around) trips could help me do the work to get better about that stuff. (Plus I generally enjoy experimenting with drugs, sue me. Lol)

Also it might be relevant to say that I’m not afraid of having a bad trip. I’ve dealt with shit where I’m literally in the worst state of mind, and honestly I feel like making it through those experiences was empowering and shaped my character in a good way.

What I am scared of are long term effects. I’ll just be frank: I have obsessive-compulsive disorder(not the fun kind - that is, not pop cultures definition), adhd, and depression. I’m managing well at this point, but its still a challenge and inconvenient as fuck. I’m still doing the work to keep improving.

Any advice? I’d LOVE some feedback and I have seen this sub in action. Sometimes it looks helpful. Give me all of your wisdom, on any aspect of this post you know shit about, OR if you think it’s something I SHOULD know that I obviously am ignorant about. Basically when I’ve done my own research, I get so many different answers it’s overwhelming. Is there consensus on anything? If anyone knows how stuff like this reacts with specific psychotropic meds, or know where I could get accurate info on that, please dm me! I’d love to ask those questions too but am uncomfortable sharing with the masses my prescriptions lol. What are some long term effects, if there are any? Is it guaranteed you’ll have them? Pros? Cons?

Wow this turned long as fuck. Kudos and thanks if you read the whole thing. If you decide to respond you’re my hero, even if it’s just to tell me I’m a sucker lol. If not that is okay too. I will not be offended lol

TL;DR - always been interested in psychedelics, however scared for a myriad of reasons; but I think this might be a good time in my life to try them. Advice pls. (Shoot me some stuff I should know that I don’t too!)

Okay so I’m a lurker and feel like a dumbass when it comes to reddit, so forgive me in advance, and criticism is welcome so I’ll learn lol. Hoping I didn’t break any rules.

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