Hypocritical sibling

I saw that growing up I was super observant of Islam but no one really gave a fuck. I was bullied, treated like shit, raised as a complete beta male simp by my parents who would probably be proud if I got beat up cuz u know I'm supposed to be a good boy arranged marriage material all the time. Basically I played by the book. I was a very good Muslim and an even better human being. It made me miserable and lonely and it persists to this day.

Sorry about this :(

About my brother "winning both sides", my dad has been going on about it for years that my female cousin who lives abroad and my brother will get married lmao. I don't condone cousin marriages but this is quite funny and I think I should take solace in the fact that it won't be such a smooth road for him in the future.

I don't really care what he does but it's soooo annoying how he is obviously keeping a secret but he is leaving that secret on the surface. When I observe this shiz I get really distracted; I can't focus on what I was previously doing. And it bothers me how he is normally a bit rude but then he has this new persona, eww. I just don't want to know about it.

As a Muslim I didn't think anything like this, or this stuff didn't affect me at all. I mean I saw Muslims dating and I found it strange, I totally judged them for it, but it was whatever. To be honest, as an exmuslim I've still found it weird when Muslims date - but sometimes I can appreciate a nice couple lol. And of course I know that most of them are just 'Muslim' by name. I have a weird sort of respect for some Muslims who follow their religion properly. Life is a mess. ;_;

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