I spend my days in as leisurely, and relaxed an environment as possible. I like to take walks, write, and listen to music. Unfortunately employment at this time is not feasible because I do have quite severe PTSD, which has flared up quite badly as I just moved back to the city where my abuse occurred.

As for revenge, yes I have thought about it. In my younger years I used to dissociate strongly and walk around believing I was some type of vigilante who could rescue other abused children. Once, I smashed in a car window because I saw two people in the back seat and thought that the man was abusing the woman. (He was not.)

Over time, I have realized that type of rage and resentment is, as the saying goes, like swallowing a poison pill and expecting it to hurt the other person. I haven't forgiven them for what they have done, but I have also chose to let my anger toward them go, because they do not deserve that much of my time and energy.