I'm getting ready to start my third year of teaching in about a month! I teach 7th-12th grade. The last two years have been an absolutely insane start to my teaching career to say the least and while I am still anxious about starting another school year I actually am feeling excited to get back in the classroom which is the exact opposite of how I was feeling this time last year.

In my personal life I've been quite depressed and down lately. I don't have any friends at the moment. My only really close friend lives about 6 hours away and I only see them about once or twice a year.

I had a friend who I considered my absolute best friend and I was hers. I'd known her for over 4 years. Late last year and early into this year we were practically each other's person. I ended up messing it up though by falling in love with her. She did not feel the same way and just wanted to be friends which I understood. But she started seeing someone within a week or two and it just became too awkward for us to remain best friends while she was trying to start a new realationship and I couldn't be there for her. It's actually a much longer story but basically we no longer speak. Or at least haven't since late March. And it all happened so quickly. Literally we were absolutely the closest of friends and then a few weeks later it was over. I still think about her and everything that happend daily.

This summer has been pretty dull because I've had no one to spend it with and I'm not the best at meeting new people. But I've been doing a lot of reading and housework to stay busy and I am lucky to have my parents and sisters in town so that's nice. But I feel very alone.