Id rather be raped than shot or stabbed.

I was raped as a kid (male btw) and id rather be shot or stabbed.Why because the rape left me broken as a person it has left me unable to develop a relationship with anyone friends or even a girlfriend.I don't like to be touched and I'm afraid to have sex because I feel the trauma of it all will come back to me.Im 22 tomorrow and I've no one to spend my birthday with I'm lonely because of being raped I couldn't even hold onto the girl I fell madly in love with over the problems it has caused me.I self sabotage and contemplate suicide.I'd right now take being shot and both stabbed over what had happened to me.But I don't know the effects either of those would have on mental health either

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