My situation is not that good, mate. My cousin was FTM and after getting rejected by his parents, my abusers, he killed himself and the woman died fighting ISIS.

Now ISIS is back on rise so her death was I'm vain.

I am still actively suicidal and only thing keeping me from going through it and trying for the third time is that I want to carry on their legacy and legacy of my family name through me.

In no case, should I be followed. My situation is atrocious. I am just trying to use the light both of them gave me to enlighten other people's world. In this way, they will never truly die. And neither will me family.

I ask OP, to link that woman to me. Perhaps, I could talk some sense into her. I know, how it is like to be consumed by hatred, to feel like the world is your enemy and want to make others feel as much pain as you. I would love nothing more than to be to others, to this woman, what both of them were to me.