One person specifically.
That she can trust me enough to let herself love me. We had an argument recently, it was more of a misunderstanding. I sent her a snap meant for another woman, a coworker of whom there is barely a friendship with let alone anything romantic. I was consoling this other woman, I said something like "you'll be right big girl", after she told me her contract through work wasn't being renewed and she had no job opportunities lined up. I accidentally sent it to my partner at the time. Then I texted her saying it was for this other woman and apologised, thinking nothing of it. Well it became huge, she made a comment about not sending her other women's snaps, I explained it was innocent and regrettably called her paranoid and said she had trust issues. The whole thing became bigger than Ben Hur. She felt that because I felt the need to explain my misplaced text, that I must be covering up for something. When really, I explained because I didn't want her thinking anything was going on. I thought I was doing the right thing. She called things off, saying she can't trust me. I've spent weeks and a dozen different ways explaining that it was just a big miscommunication. Harmless. A slip of the thumb. She's not hearing it.
Discovered today she's blocked me on social media, despite me saying I'm going to drop it and not discuss her and i as a thing. I understand where she's coming from, she's worried I'll drunk text or dial her I guess.
I sincerely tried really hard with her, I spent my 20s avoiding relationships or getting close to ppl. All to have this happen. I love her, honestly love her because I felt she and I just connected.
Fuck Snapchat.