I’m still trying to decide what I want. I haven’t chosen not to transition, but if I do make this choice, it will be because the risks/drawbacks of transition won’t outweigh the rewards/benefits for me.

I’m most likely non-binary transmasculine. I think I would like most of the benefits of HRT but I don’t know if I want to be seen as male. That may feel just as confining to me as being seen as female. If I could do some sort of transition that would result in people seeing me as a masculine nonbinary person (and give me a fully-functioning dick, ha) I’d do it in a second. But as it is, we live in a binary world and I still feel like I have to choose between male and female when it comes to where society places me - and I’m not sure if I’d prefer to be placed in the male box.

I’m in the early stages of a social transition. I’ve started dressing and acting more masc, and I can see people responding to that - and I like it. So I’m just going to keep doing more of that and see if I reach a point where I don’t like it anymore. If not, then I may consider medical transition steps, pronoun changes, etc.