Hey. I have been there. I have wished I was straight, cried over the fact that I liked girls, panicked at the thought of telling my friends and family. It's awful for hating yourself for something you can't control. But that's just it. You can't help it. It's not your fault, and it unfortunately you have to accept it. I wad lucky enough to have amazing friends and support but you might not be as lucky as I am. With the way the world is it is more accepted thankfully and it will only get better. It sucks, but at some point you're gonna find someone you love and it will be okay. You'll think you were crazy for ever wanting to be straight. Just wait a bit longer. It takes time, and it will be hard, but just wait. It's only a small part of you, don't let something so small affect your entire life.