My past; sounds clichéd but I developed a lying habit as a young person to deal with my feelings of inadequacy (hi expectations from the folks, feelings of rejection from those I had liked, or generally failing to meet the expectations of others.) Now let me stress, these began as never intentional, small lies like; "I got an A on this test" when really I had failed. This continued to develop from the time I finished high school, right through until about a year ago; I became exceedingly good at it, to the point where I was even working in a profession which required university qualifications for almost 2 years before I was finally caught out; and I finally had to come clean with my family, friends, co-workers and fiancé.

It was almost a kind of liberating feeling when it all came out; I finally started going to therapy, and with the incredible support and unconditional love I recieved from my family, friends and and now wife (she found this all out a month before we got married btw), I have managed to improve significantly and start to rebuild my life in a positive and healthy way.

However, it doesn't change the fact that, by intentionally lying in the past, I had caused alot of irreparable damage to alot of good people; people who were only just trying to live their lives, and do the right thing. It something that continues to haunt me to this day, and brings on spontaneous panic attacks and bouts of anxiety; I don't think I'll ever be able to get fully over it to be honest.