Ooh ooh pick me pick me!
So on the 8th of this month I drank so much and took a benzo and lost most of that day and some of the next. I was unconscious for a good chunk of that, but when I wasn’t I was delirious, I was talking about death and suicide, eventually blurted out HOSPITAL and my husband took me to the ER.
I was in and out, while “awake” I was extremely combative, almost to the point of being physical. One doctor threatened to have me put on a hold and that shut me up. Next thing I remember was being in the ICU. I had a nurse staying with me all night. I verbally assaulted him, he was of Indian descent, I made fun of his accent and told him to go back where he came from. I pulled out an IV and tried to pull out a catheter. I threatened to shit the bed. I kept trying to get up but couldn’t. He mostly ignored me. Which sort of worked but only pissed me off. I think they sedated me. I was threatened with restraints.
My advice is to not take it personally when someone is in the state I was in. Especially when they sober up and come around. They won’t remember, and even if they do that wasn’t what they are like as a sober person. Once they’ve sobered up try to believe them as much as possible. With whatever it is, if they remember something or don’t then don’t hound them relentlessly about it.
Also, I’ve had nurses constantly ask me if I went through withdrawals and if I still have any withdrawal symptoms. (I’m still in the hospital, which is why I was like pick me lol) One in particular kept insisting I would have had serious DTs based on my usual drinking amount. Which was VERY frustrating. I kept telling her I have withdrawal symptoms (sweating, shaking, anxiety) but for relatively short period of time and gabapentin and a mild benzo kills off most symptoms. But she would just not believe me. What the hell! She kept saying I probably didn’t remember and seemed suspicious when I said I didn’t have symptoms currently, after more than two weeks, nearly three.
I’m bored and hospitalized so feel free to ask any follow ups.