"You want to be ill!"

This subreddit helps me a lot, even if just to know I am not alone.

Two stories come to mind off the top of my head.

When I was 8 I fractured my wrists riding my bike down a hill "no-handed" when I hit a rock, and flew over my handlebars. I walked home, and I told my Mom what happened and that my wrists hurt really bad. She yelled at me for riding my bike no-handed. Then, she told me I had to eat dinner. It was tomato soup. I couldn't pick up the spoon my wrists hurt so badly. My Mom was angry, she kept telling me to stop faking it and yelling at me over and over "Pick up the spoon!" I just cried and cried and I couldn't pick up that goddamn spoon no matter how hard I tried. When my Dad (who was a lot worse than my Mom in some ways tbh) got home, my wrists were swollen up so he took me to the doctor. My Mom didn't apologize, and said that I fake stuff all the time, so how would she know to believe me. I don't remember ever lying about an injury.

This might not be quite as bad, but it's always really bothered me. When I was 13 I broke my ankle playing basketball. My Dad in particular was very disappointed because it meant I wouldn't be able to finish the season. I heard it crack when I broke it, and I walked right to the bench and said, "I think I broke my ankle." But, my Dad wouldn't take me to the hospital, he told me to wait until tomorrow, in case it was just sprained. I knew it was broken, but I waited. Even though my parents could have easily taken work off, they just left me home alone all week with a broken ankle. I remember crawling down the hallway to the bathroom crying with my ankle held up in the air as much as possible it hurt so bad, wishing someone was there to help me and wishing that they cared.

One more, but this happened to my younger sister. She had asthma. When she was three I remember my Dad was yelling at us when we were on the stairs in our house and she passed out and fell down the stairs. Shortly after this we found out she had asthma. For some reason my parents never carried her inhaler around, and never gave her medicine for her allergies in the fall, and I have some memories of being really really afraid she was going to die because she couldn't breath.

:'(

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