I think I'll kill myself this saturday

And there is nothing wrong with that, because it is your own body and your own call to make(however it would make many people sad, as much as you might believe otherwise). I don't know your circumstances or anything about you, so there's no way I'd knock you for wanting to make a call like this.

I'm not going to tell you "you have so much to live for", or "it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem", because I know they are not helpful or necessarily entirely truthful. It is usually always an uphill battle, and it never seems to be temporary by any means.

However, I will tell you a bit about my own personal decision to not kill myself, as it may offer a potential different view. Now I'm not a religious man, so I don't see there being much potential of anything being there after I die. If I'm going off of tangible evidence, the atoms that make up "me" will disperse, and "I" will no longer exist. When I get the least bit suicidal after a rough patch of the almighty shitstorm that is depression, I think about what would happen. I would disappear. Now this seems like a good thing given the situation at first glance, but think about it. You no longer get to feel, good or bad. I don't know about you, but I would live through a thousand personal hells before I would go back to nonexistence. I know it may not seem like it, but feeling like shit beats not feeling at all any day. Think about what life was like before you were born. There wasn't. You didn't even have the right to have a shitty life, because life didn't exist. There was no universe, there was no me, there was no happiness, there was no sadness. There wasn't.

Suicide doesn't end depression, it ends life. It deletes EVERYTHING, including you. You won't feel happier, because you won't feel. You won't be you. There isn't even anything to be. If you have a single thread of positive connotation to existing, I recommend reevaluating your decision. Whatever the decision is, I wish you the best of luck.

Depression is tough shit with no easy answer. If the last time I see you, goodbye, friend. Know that there ARE people who will miss you in this universe.

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