Well, what I failed to mention in my initial story is that I can tell she's not faking it when we actually do make love. She orgasms hard several times and I know that she isn't just making porn noises. She always tells me she loves me and does love the hanky panky, but the frustration stems from her loving it, but never wanting to have it. Since you're the HL, then you get that to some degree. You can't be absolutely mind blown by something when you have it and only want it once a month. There's something hormonally wrong, which she refuses to even get checked. I'm sappy as fuck and I know that there's more to a relationship and life than sex, so I love her! I'm sappy like that. Every woman I was with treated me like absolute shit, but wanted to fuck me all the time, now I'm with the opposite. I need emotional love, which no woman wanted to provide me with because some women are just okay with never loving someone and it's just all fucked!