Thank you all for your advice. Reading all your comments, I feel a bit relieved that I am able to talk about how I feel as this isn't something I can bring up in real life. It also gave me a lot of different perspective that I was perhaps, myopic about.

I think I wasn't very clear in my post as I'm very confused about how I feel as well. I know that I will not get the kind of connection/intimacy I crave with a sex worker. But I just have this animalistic urge to be physical with a women. To be able to have physical contact with a women, to know what it is like to have sex with someone. I just don't want to build my happiness on their misery, I don't think I can live with myself if I did. (maybe I'm wrong, but I think most sex workers didn't aspire to be one and some circumstantial reasons might have compelled them to do so).

I think I might have some self-confidence issue, I'm really quite average and I've never really gone on any dates and now, I've really got no clue what to do. I tend to clam up when I meet new people and would only be comfortable to talk to people when I get to know them better. (chicken and egg problem). I think I have a lot of work cut out for me to work on these issues.

I still don't know what I'll do, and I feel really pathetic about this.

In any case, if you're reading this, thanks for being my listening ear. I appreciate all your comments and advice.