Problem is I'm too loyal, it would not be possible for me to say anything malicious about MDE. I've made a comment about how Sam self sabotages before but I didn't really mean it, but I still remember that to this day. He didn't reply or anything, I just felt immense guilt for betraying my most favourite person on the planet and could never do it again.

That tranny shit pissed me off, seeing it plastered in his twitter feed, I feel that MDE's victories are my victories and so that image was as disturbing and hurtful to me as it possibly could have been. I still blame myself for getting the show cancelled, I was relentless when attacking CNN and its parent companies. It was the only time I put anything above MDE, I can't really say I regret doing it because I had to do everything possible to make Donald Trump the president. I imagine I must have caught some attention, sharing videos about Ted Turner and making sure that CNN couldn't get away with anything.

Prior to the heavy spam filtering, I would see some negative shit pop up in the new section and immediately message Sam to get it removed, sometimes he was busy and took a whole day to reply. Maybe if I had taken a mod position when I was asked none of this would have happened. But maybe I also would have gotten wasted and abused my power.

We will have to live with ourselves for the rest of our lives knowing what we have done, for me I also need to live with knowing what I haven't done. Mr. Sam please forgive me and I beg you to cast me out of your flock.