Being a short blackout drinker; I did that for 12 years my friend. I can tell you this however. When you stop abusing drugs and alcohol, that fog that makes you question your own intelligence goes away. You can more easily.

Im not going to lie, things wont get better instantly. They probably wont even feel like they're getting better even when you can objectively evaluate that they are. One of the biggest issues ive noticed about this recovery of mine is how being an addict has made me still long for that near instant gratification that substances would give me.

But it does get better and its worth fighting for. I still get depressed but the feelings of hopelessness are so much smaller than they used to be. Im going to keep pushing myself no matter what roadblocks occur. I want to show you where i was at my lowest and show you how far ive come since then.

This is because so many things about my personality changed when i put down the pipe and bottle. I started to really care, I wasnt exactly a happy person but i could actually identify why.