I think I'm experiencing mystical psychosis

I've been through the same things, I thought everyone's putting thoughts in my head and everyone's satan or just scared of not knowing what's happening but that's the thing I and I assume you don't know what's happening and you can do whatever you want, so I just hope you find peace of mind. I'm not being that helpful because I havent broken through yet or whatever so Im just telling you what I can. Just ask what's important to you, finding heaven now in the real experience of what's real and that's you breathing and living, or worrying about something therefore anxiety which will get worse and negative feelings. I don't know, we can either believe our mind and thoughts or just observe them without believing them and feel your breath and body and then eventually we will transcend and what happens I don't know it could be anything but it's happening so there's really nothing we can do but accept that we aren't in control at all even in suicide I know nothing of the afterlife but I just feel that if there's a heaven on earth I'm going to try to find it because what if nothing happens after death then you wasted the heaven that possibly awaits, what if the seekers are right about reincarnation, then you'll be in the same situation, what if it's something awesome and way better? Well, you missed out on finding out what it means to overcome struggles and live in heaven on earth or wherever we end up. Also for what it's worth, I am just a regular anxiety suffered ex drug abuser who gets just as worried and have been very psychotic before and had mindsets like that, I convinced myself that the bible was real. I guess we live whatever we believe, but yeah we can't control anything really were here and we have to be, this has to happen in order to grow, I believe that trials are here to teach us how to find heaven. I hope you find peace.

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