Thanks a lot for the response.

I kinda disagree where you say I want "kindness from others or chats or stuffa like that and if you don't receive it, you block every contact." I really don't think I expect much from people. I rarely ask for help or support in anything, for fear of looking needy. I didn't want to fully elaborate in the post, but I wouldn't block someone just for not chatting with me. If I have a good friend I'm very flexible with them. Historically, arguably too flexible. But I've just realized I had a lot of bad ones which makes it easy for me to block them for something small.

I had a lot friends that I would feel like a nuisance asking for help or support in anything, but they have no problem asking for my support.

For example, I edit pictures, and a friend asked me to edit one, free of charge. It is an artistic edit of sorts, not just a normal edit, it's for his music cover. He had all sorts of requirements for how it should look- he had so much to say before it was done. I sent him the final edit. No response, no "thank you," no longer was blowing me up. He used the picture, so he clearly liked it. It's pretty basic manners. If someone does something for me, I am appreciative. If I do something for the people I've been around, they are not appreciative.

Another example regards car rides. I would drive people all over the place. I'd never mention it. Then, for probably the first time, I need a ride, I have to ask like 7 friends, and I have to pay the one who said yes gas money, though I've driven them around hundreds of times and never asked for anything from. And much more than the actual dollar amount, it didn't take 5 bucks gas to get me home. Probably $0.40. It felt childish. They had plenty of gas, and a job.

Another is just straight up emotional support. I've listened to people talk for hours about their problems and helped them through stuff. Small stuff and big stuff alike. Those same people would not give me the time of day if I used them to vent like they used me.

The point of those examples is to try to show that I really don't even expect half of what I give people. My solution has been giving less and expecting less, and yes, I've been extreme in that.

Also, most of these people don't go to uni. I do, and I'm passionate about it, so I think there's a pretty big divide. I definitely feel more mature than them. Not just on the basis of me going to uni, but that I have a goal that I am passionate about. Most of these people have no answers when you ask them what they are passionate about. I would be lost without my passions so it genuinely confuses me how they are fine without progressing.

I'm definitely isolating myself, and that makes it harder. But it really does feel better to have no friends than bad ones.

I'm in school and I'm passionate about it. That is my focus now. I don't have many friends at school but I am surrounded by likeminded people.

Thanks again for the advice. I liked your take on things.