Hey, I really can't say much in the way of encouragement because I have never been in your situation. I'm lucky enough to be a straight white cis male from a middle class family so the world is my oyster in that regard. I just wanted to let you know that not all of us think of you as a freak or a joke. I'm not going to try and sugarcoat it or tell you some bullshit, a lot of people are so horrible to trans people that even I know what you're talking about and that's NOT okay. It's not okay and it's certainly not fair. You DO NOT deserve this. You DO NOT deserve to be 'punished' for being yourself. Unfortunately a lot of people are just fucking close-minded and unable to understand that every person's experience in life is different. Please don't give up on being yourself. Fuck all those people. They are pieces of shit for treating you this way. I know this is hardly a helpful post and nothing I do or say will make a difference to your situation, but please know that you have allies, even outside the lgbt* community, that won't stop calling assholes out on their bigotry until they no longer feel like they can spread their hate in public without being ostracized.

PS: Good luck finding your cannabis!