The thing is I usually do value myself, I have a few friends which I constantly listen to and compliment. I value that, it satisfies me to know that people find me meaningful, it makes me feel like I'm worth something, that I do have something to give to people. But it's not with her, she never speaks to me about her troubles, and that does make me feel like I don't have much to give to her, I do get that constant "I'm not good enough" because of that. I'm not even sure why she still bothers with me, after showing that sensitive side yesterday. I'm so scared of showing it. I hate who I am when I am sensitive, because I am exactly that, I start overthinking an I demand proof as you've said. But it's the first time that it happened. I feel the need to apologize over that. She is probably busy with homework, you're right. I just wish I knew where I'm heading to. I wish the future wasn't so cloudy. I wish I knew there was something worth living for. I don't know how to live with this fear that I could end up in a world without her. Look how obsessed I am. So disgusting. That self-deprecation is even more disgusting.