I'm Just Depressed.

Heya! I really appreciate this thoughtful advice. As far ask exercise goes, I actually started a routine with the dog for multiple reasons:

  1. Get Healthy
  2. Get the Dog Out
  3. Reduce Depression

Exercise is supposedly just as effective if not more effective in handling depression than medications. Also a stable exercise routine helps prevent the relapse of depression. Source

As far as magic mushrooms go, I personally will not go down that route. I'm very sensitive to a lot of substances and have some severe medical issues that could cause an adverse reaction for myself if I started using that. S.M.A.R.T. Goals is the model I personally use for myself. I'm very goal and task orientated. Right now the long-term goals are:

  1. Move Out of the Parent's House
  2. Independently Earn A Living
  3. Stay the Fuck out of the Hospital

For goal 1 it's borken down into a step-by-step saving my money plan so that by February 2018, I'll have enough extra $$$ to move out and pay 6 months rent if I need to regardless of parents help or not.

Regarding goal 2 that just means doing something daily for my online website marketing plan and continuously working on that as if it were my full time job since my health and a few things with my family is preventing me from getting a day-to-day job. I'm also considering branching out and obtaining clients to do freelance work for.

Goal 3 involves getting my anxiety under control and visiting my doctors office regularly for fluids and other medications Intravenously to keep me from getting too sick. I have chronic pancreatitis and it's a bitch to manage.

As far as jiu jitsu goes I cannot do that because I had spinal neck surgery and it's still fragile. Despite being a year since surgery, I am not cleared for any type of high impact workouts that could cause me to fall or get hit or slammed into because it could cause severe injury. It's the same reason I cannot take up acrobatic pole dancing as an artform. Which, is something I'd love to do.

It's funny, because I'm very well versed in "beating" depression and am quite insightful. Yet, I still struggle. I think that speaks to how heavily depression can weigh on a person. By nature depression can really sink you and it takes work to get up and work on overcoming it. I broke down last night when I posted this. The trick is to not let it completely ruin you and to pick up the pieces and keep going.

I honestly think my depression and suicidal thoughts is very much so because I'm under the influence of my parents at home again. I lived on my own for 7 years and was not nearly as depressed as I have been this past year following my neck surgery and being forced to live at home. I have not felt this way since I was 16 and the common denominator there is living with my parents... For instance, I've been cut free for roughly 10 years now and my desire to cut ceased to exist when I was 5 years cut free. Now, I keep thinking about it/wanting to do it. I won't do it, because that's a rabbit hole and problem I don't need but it just speaks to what living at home is doing to my mental health and stability.

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