I'm Not Depressed Life Is Depressing

First off, I understand what you're saying because I get lows like that and boy do I try to stay away from them too.

But essentially...you lack gratefulness. It sounds harsh but it's true. Life is incredible, but we forget sometimes because of our imbalances like depression. You even having a job in America places you economically above most people in the world - fact. If you choose to have a shit job out of MILLIONS of possible jobs, that's your lack of accountability. If you don't want to be in the system, you don't have to be. You can move. You have so much more autonomy in your life than others do by virtue of the fact you're alive, on Reddit, good enough health to post coherently, and likely live in a rich nation since you're probably American or Canadian etc.

I used to work in a mental rehab, so I talked to all kinds of patients of different ailments and ages. The miserable ones were SET on being miserable. They'd say their life is shit, then it'd get worse like they'd have a stroke, and then justified that by, "See! Life is shit, I told you!". And they'd die with their ignorances in tact. That fucking sucks. (I literally had to wash their corpses right after death before rigor mortis set in and the morgue folks came). So. I'd see these humans and their behavior and listen to their stories and then see them die and think..well fuck. They kept waiting for the world to change for them. You can change your attitude. Nothing externally will do it for you though. If anything, your attitude changes everything else.

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