Hey OP, fellow Indian here struggling with immense burnout , anxiety and self-esteem issues (this is the saddest statement ever lol).
Please reach out if you ever want to. This process is really exhausting, and it's taken a toll on everyone's mental health. Luckily the boards' schedule is super laidback, so you can take a week off in April to recharge without really losing out in terms of prep. I really hope you feel better soon-- what's keeping me going is that we're in the home stretch now and it'll all be done for good in a few months. I know it's really goddamn hard to stay motivated on most days and with so many decisions pending, I'm finding myself have a lot of self-confidence and anxiety issues, but luckily, we have the whole of April to find out footing again, and I'm sure that everything will work out and these 2 long hard years will end in the best way possible. Keep your chin up!
Also, I saw that you applied to Ashoka, so hopefully you got in!