I never thought I would ever want kids. Growing up, the idea never sounded like something I wanted in my life. When I was 19 I found out I was pregnant. I knew I made a mistake. I had the pregnancy terminated early. I was in a terrible relationship.
7 years later, I was in a new relationship. I was for once, happy with my life and my choices. And I found my self pregnant again. After weeks of thinking it over... I knew I wasn’t ready. But if I was going to have a child, it was a now or never situation for me.
My first ultrasound showed I was having twins. I was unsure and terrified my WHOLE pregnancy.
My daughters are one now. I’ve realized a love I have never known before. Words couldn’t describe how much I need these girls. They have turned my life around and gave me a purpose. The reason I work so hard, the reasons I make the choices I do today are because of them. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
The point I guess I’m trying to make, is that you may never know. But when you are ever in the situation, fear may overrule all other feelings... but dig a little deeper and go with your gut.