Yeah, I see what your saying and my reason for that reasoning when I say that is because it's too much like, it's like a wave of zombies coming at you in call of duty black ops or something. At first, my mentality was like okay, people may not like me because of what I've done in the past. I was cool with it, I seen everything coming from the name calling to losing friendships but after a few years it was like I had to accept this would be my life until I died because of the reputation I've built throughout my lifetime and I wouldn't be able to be to live life like I use to. Society won't accept me no more. Its different man. I wish there was a way I could just help people understand me but it's very complicated. And I use to do that, the look them in the face and just chuckle a little but Ignoring them, fighting them, arguing with them but none of that helps but I think it's mostly because they think I'm weak. At work, I stick to myself and they're mostly grouped up with other workers that have been there for years so they think they can punk me. I work in the fields or use to before I quit and even the supervisor tries to make fun of me. They don't have workplace laws and honestly no respect. What gets me more mad is that they talk Shit to me but when they come around my mom or other family members, they act all cool. So when I tell my mom that I don't like that guy or girl. She thinks I'm making up things :/. Its like these guys know how to 1up me all the time. My gay brothers even make fun of me, can you believe that? What I did once in my life and they do every weekend is comedy to them? But don't worry about sounding angry in your post. Its all good. I need to leave this little town.